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I'm really having a tough time with this lifestyle change. I think it's just too much stuff going on at once, but it needs to happen. I'm not dealing well with my breakup, and it's definitely showing in my ability to control what I eat. I binged on mostly everything yesterday, I even went out and bought soda and had a whole bottle. I haven't had soda in over a month. I had brownies and candies and double serving of dinner. And I didn't get to work out.

I started seeing a therapist this week. It was just an introduction interview, so I don't know how it's going to work out. I don't really feel any better about anything, but hopefully I can get my self-image problem under control and get over the man who has my heart. I'm at a loss for what to do to make things better on my own anymore.

I've been a member of caloriecount.about.com for many years, unsuccessfully used its calorie counting program and such. I started the daily plate when I finally gave in and saw a nutritionist about what I need to eat (remind me I need to go see her again), she recommended this site to me. It's pretty much like caloriecount, but I clung to the food database easier, and the little gadgets like the daily water consumption are more motivating than a little thumbs up sign at the bottom of the page, even if you didn't lose any weight. Back to my point, I still receive emails and such from calorie count, I find their groups and newsletters more helpful than their actual product. I received an email about six 30-day quick start workout routines, and they don't look that bad. I want to start the running one as soon as my friend leaves to go back home from her week stay.

I need to do this. I need to be healthy. But can I?