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So it has been a while since I've updated, but that's fine. I'm still here, I'm still on my journey to a healthier me. I'm starting to lose weight, but I'm hitting obstacles everywhere and it's definitely hard without a support group. I've been having a lot of issues with my new roommate, making me think I should just live on my own, but I already signed to have a roommate for next year. Maybe senior year I will be on my own for first semester.

School is doing fine so far, no really big assignments yet. Chemistry is going to kick me in the ass, I know it. I'm going to have to start taking more hours per semester if I want to get that physics endorsement. I don't know how I'll be able to handle it. I felt like I could do anything when I was with Dan, which is why I did so well last semester (I got on Dean's List!). I'm not sure what my future holds, but I know I will eventually be able to do it.

I'm trying to make friends, but it's hard. I've never been the socialite. My friends from back home and I are getting rings together to symbolize our friendship and stuff.

"I'm thinking of all the girls getting the Irish Claddagh rings with our birthstones. Something cute we can all have together, and no matter who our heart belongs to we'll always have each other."

This is the ring that I'm getting. I think it's gorgeous, but I'm afraid that it's too bland, April is such a dull color. Diamonds should be for marriage proposals. Speaking of marriage proposals, Amanda and Jim got engaged. It's terrible, but I want to be Amanda. Oh well, all I can be is Julie, and I have to make myself better in order to be happy. I miss Dan, I miss being important in his life, and I miss feeling loved and cared for. Maybe I never had that, I thought I did. As we all know with Claddagh Rings, they tell about your relationship status, and now I will be wearing my heart outward, even though I am completely in love with a man who doesn't share my feelings. Some day my prince will come.

The other girls are getting February, May, June, September, and December. It will make a cool picture of us all together. I'm hoping to get them in by Valentine's Day, and we all are going out to dinner together where I'll give them to everyone. Girl's night in about two weeks, something to look forward to? I guess.